I woke up early on Sunday morning and peeked into my eldest daughter's room
She still hadn't fallen asleep..
I closed the door saying "Why aren't you sleeping.."
But my eldest followed me out right away
She said various things.. that she installed a large game on her laptop.. that her acne isn't going away quickly..
She was talking like that..
So..
Still in a sleepy state.. I just listened saying "uh.. uh.."
While I was doing that, suddenly..
Why did you treat me so coldly this morning..?
That's what she said..
Me..?
I was a bit surprised because I had never done that..
So when I explained that I had never done such a thing..
She quietly accepted it and backed away(?)..
After the child went into her room..
Did I do that..? I thought..
I carefully reviewed my behavior..
Nothing special happened..
That's strange..
Why would she think that..thinking about it..
I recalled my usual behavior..
While eating, I stare at my eldest daughter.
When my eldest feels me looking at her, she looks back at me.
Then I think "now's the time" and wink..
My eldest, whose face turns red,
Says "Dad, please don't wink.."
I say "I didn't wink.." and then..
She says "You did wink.. I saw it.."
Then I..
I didn't wink, but since you say I did, let's say I winked..
But these are my eyes..
Why do you keep telling me what to do or not to do..
Can't I do what I want with my own eyes..
Well..
Roughly like that..
I've been communicating with my child through jokes or pranks like that every day..
So I..
I guess I was quiet this morning..
From the child's perspective, it could have felt like I was treating her coldly..
That's what I realized..
Now that I think about it.. my wife often does something similar..
When I'm thinking about something..
I don't say anything and just stay quiet..
Then she asks "Are you angry.."
I'm not angry..
Even when I say I'm not angry,
When she keeps asking, I sometimes get annoyed..
Then I show my annoyance..
In our neighborhood dialect, I'm acting crazy..
You said I'm not angry, so why do you keep doing this..
Something like that..
Thinking about it carefully..
In the same situation, I seem to treat my wife a bit roughly..
In the same situation, I discover myself being very attentive and favorable toward my daughter..
So from now on, I'm going to think of my wife as my daughter too..
If I think of her as my woman, I can't forgive,
But if I think of her as my daughter, I can forgive.. Someone said that..
If that doesn't work, what can I do..
