Our family often visits Sukabumi's Pelabuhan Ratu beach..
4-5 hours when traffic's clear..
have to be prepared for around 10 hours when it's jammed,
but you can eat lobster cheaply..
the beach is huge,
and the waves crash hard enough that people surf even in the shallows..
We enjoy playing in waves strong enough to knock us off our feet even in the shallow water,
and the cheap hotel prices are another draw for us..
We always stay at the same hotel..
calling it a "hotel" is generous, it's more like a 2-story cottage,
but the price is low.. and it's decent enough..
I've gone with my mother, and also with my younger aunt..
as a family we've probably been five or six times..
But when we get there
and head barefoot toward the shore, there's always someone who comes to mind..
My mother..?
Sorry, but it's not my mother..
it's my younger aunt who comes to mind..
I woke up early one morning and my aunt wasn't there..
turns out she'd put on a straw hat and was walking along that vast sandy beach..
and there's one line I still haven't forgotten..
She said it had been 10 years since she'd seen the sea..
I'm from Masan.. my aunt's from Busan..
both places surrounded by sea wherever you look, if you just decide to go..
but my aunt said she hadn't seen the sea in 10 years..
trying to hold onto the smell of the sea and the feel of sand under bare feet, after 10 years..
that's probably why she went for a walk so early in the morning..
She'd wanted to see the sea so badly, I could feel it..
but because of the hardships of life..
only because her nephew happened to be here
did she come all the way to distant Indonesia and see it, after 10 years..
even having to scrape together vacation time with difficulty to come see it..
She must have carried that vast Pelabuhan Ratu beach in her heart when she left..
What is it that makes someone want to go see the sea
and yet keeps them from going..?
People like me might just not want to go because it's a hassle,
but for someone else who wants to see the sea,
this thing called society grabs their ankle and won't let go..