The person I am most generous to is
my daughters..
My oldest seems to be going through puberty..
My youngest does a lot of mischievous things..
But for them, I am
always someone who listens..
To put it simply,
I'm an easygoing person..
Because I seem easygoing,
that's probably how they see me..
Unlike the living room on the first floor,
the living room on the second floor doesn't have an air conditioner..
When I watch a movie on my laptop in the second-floor living room,
I can watch it quietly without anyone bothering me..
The heat..?
I turn on the air conditioner in my youngest daughter's room full blast and
install a fan in the room..
Of course, the direction of the fan is towards the living room..
towards the sofa where I am sitting.
I send the cool air from inside the room
to me using the fan.
While watching a movie,
I exercise occasionally..
Since I can't do strength training without rest,
I watch movies while resting occasionally..
It's similar to having a TV in front of a treadmill.
But..
suddenly, my youngest daughter closes the door to her room.
After a while,
since no cool air comes out at all,
exercising becomes
like being in a sauna..
I told her to open the door,
but she was upset about something else and
as expected, my words as an easygoing dad
were ignored.
I get annoyed without realizing it..
It's already evening.
If I stay on the second floor,
I think I'll get even more annoyed.
So, I went down to the first floor and sat on the sofa..
The cool air conditioner breeze
lifts my spirits right away.
I go back upstairs,
open the door to my youngest daughter's room myself..
If I leave the door closed, I'll catch a cold..
By the way, we sleep with the temperature set at 27 degrees.
I open the door and
turn the fan back towards me.
While watching a movie,
this thought occurred to me..
The mind should rule the body, that's normal..
But in reality,
it seems like the body rules the mind.
It's hot..
My youngest daughter is the one who made me hot..
I get annoyed..
If I can't control my emotions here,
I'll end up getting angry at my child for not listening to adults..
It's because of my hot body
that I get annoyed.
I realize once again that I am a weak person.
