Hello.
Lately, the weather has been arriving with a feeling of whether it's autumn or spring has come again.
It's somewhat chilly ^^.
I think it would be good to have many good thoughts as much as this good weather, wouldn't it?
Perhaps because of that, whenever the weather is nice and it becomes a day that everyone loves to play, a day without schedules, my body gets restless, a restlessness that leaves no choice but to go outside..
I want to ride my mini velo that I've been with for a long time every day, but... sometimes, a time to lightly explore alleys here and there.
I think the world of two wheels is what can take me further than just walking this good season with all my heart.
Often... alley travels and contemplation...
Personally, when I pass through the alleys of old neighborhoods disappearing due to redevelopment, even though it's not my neighborhood, there's an indescribable feeling, people living and breathing,
When I watch the warmth of lives being lived completely evaporate, it makes me think of even more things.
It's a kind of loss... like being in a river where I have no choice but to go with the big current, having to let go or experience things disappearing one by one,
I feel emptiness in the fact that the smell of people is disappearing among these numerous alleys.
Alleys I don't want to lose, so to speak?
As for flowers, if the vitality to maintain that place is kept, they bloom when the time comes and wither when the time comes, so they quietly anticipate the next, the next year,
They will protect that position.
And for whatever reason, a long time spent struggling underground trying not to lose the given vitality.
It may be nothing but pain, but when it shines in some moment, striving to bloom on time and achieve beauty, this entire process applies to people as well,
No different at all, so I've been thinking for a long time about where my position is in life and whether I'm placing myself well in the present, and as a result,
I naturally observe everything... people living their own lives.
Gray area.
In the extreme changes of black and white these days, if we don't balance both sides thoughtfully, find the balance point of life in that gray area, and take hold of ourselves,
Then infinite fear and anxiety await, not knowing what will happen to the present and future, and I no longer separate my area from your area,
I keenly feel that this is a time when we really need to worry together.
A slight inconvenience.
A life without a little bit of spare space, isn't it really just suffocating?
It's practice.
Everything is practice and effort to make good things into habits.
I also will continue to make more effort now and in the future, but even if it's difficult, because it's difficult, I think about how to do it better and move forward little by little, more than yesterday,
That practice of improving little by little is never in vain, so I can let others know about my own practice of good habits, and I record it step by step.
I'm doing various things in my spare time, and even though I can't find time other than reducing my sleep to 30 minutes or less, I feel more joy every day than before.
Naturally, answers to everything have always been found not just obtained, but in places that are troublesome, annoying, difficult, and hard.
Someone might doubt even this or question it saying they already know well, but what's important is that without practice and results that are connected to action from small things,
You won't know.
What anyone can do but not everyone can do well.
Doing well means trusting yourself quietly for a long time, practicing through practical living, and confirming change at the right time.
Of course, only that person would know.
And it will inevitably show in the overall feeling and face of that person that quietly reveals itself.
One's current words, actions, and attitude.
Most importantly, one's own thoughts.
I see this as life, creating one's own work through numerous frustrations and finished work that takes hold of its center.
Creative life.
Artistic life.
A generous heart based on altruism toward others, kindness.
I cannot help but assume that a life of infinite gray areas originates from that.
1년 365일 오작 나 혼자있을 시간에 단 20분내외로 기록을해 나가며 지낸지 꽤 오래되었습니다.
언제부턴가 습관이되어버려서인지 일상도되었고 적어도 나 자신과 나의 삶을 기록하는건 고작 하루 20분 내외구나하며
지켜야할 나만의 약속중 하나인 하루기록.
브루너가 이런말을했었죠.
" 내가 지켜가는 그 약속들이 훗날 나를 지켜내는 것들이다 "
제가 가장 가슴에 새겨놓은 좋은말로써 삶을 지켜가는 약속이 아마도 자신이 정한 루틴을 끝없이 반복함으로써 얻는 삶이야말로
그가 강조한 삶의 해석 그 이상으로 와닿는것은 참 많은것 같습니다.
저는 늘 어제의 제 자신과 싸움에서 이겨낸 오늘을 맞이한다고 생각합니다.
정말 고군분투 치열하게 싸워야할 대상은 타인이나 다른 사람이 아니라 바로 자꾸 쉽게 어려운것을 그냥 넘어가려는 또다른 자아일지 모르겠습니다.
사람이니까요.
그 본성을 거스르는건 정말 어렵지만 또 그것을 이겨내야죠.
그것밖엔 달리 방법이 없는것 걑습니다
그럼에도 마냥 그런 삶이 늘 고단하지만은 않은것 같아요.
또 좋은사람들이 드문드문 살만하게 손잡아주니 말이죠^^
그러니 저는 이렇게 말씀드리고 싶습니다.
" 정말 삶이란 요즘과같이 어려울때는 없었던것 같아요. 하지만 그럼에도 블구하고 조금씩 불편을 주는 사람들이 또 있더라도
그 사람도 알고보면 정말 더욱 힘들게 살아서 그런말과 행동을 하는거라고... 아주 조금만 마음의 여유자릴 만들어 경청을 먼저해주는
좋은 마음으로 들어주고 살면 어떨까요? "
평소 그럴만한 일이 있을때 경청하자고 조금씩 하다보니 현재 요즘같은때에 가장 필요한 관대함과 귀 기울여주기가 정말 필요하단
생각을 나누고싶어 이렇게 몇자 남겨봤습니다.
저는 잼있는글을 쓸줄은 모릅니다만 누군가는 여러 사람이 함께 생각할수있는 글을 쓰고 좋은생각을 공유할수 있는일을 해야한다면
아마도 별거는 아닐수있고 누구나가 할수도 있는일일지라도 제가 한번 해보고 싶었구요.
누군가에겐 조금이라도 이런 생각을 다르게 생각도 할수있구나하고 한번쯤 생각해보는 시간 어떨까 생각해왔습니다.
역시나 짧게 글쓰자 하던게 또 이렇게되네요.
자동으로 글이 마구써져서 줄이는게 참 어렵습니다.
오늘도 안전한 삶, 안전한 하루와 충만한 하루를 보내셨길 바랍니다.
좋은하루되세요^^
